Lay It All to Me

By Ed Sheeran (photo by Christian Hopkins)

Let's talk about mental health. For some, the topic seems like a waste of time. Because in our society, mental illness associates with craziness. People would always have general(ignorant) things to say about it. When you say Tanjung Rambutan asylum, people would think that's a place where people are capable of going amok and terrorize the whole neighborhood one day. When someone kill themselves or attempt suicide, others would say "Small thing only, want to make drama issit?"

Do you know that about 10% of Malaysian suffers from mental illness? I'm no doctor but that's quite a number. And yet, no one wants to talk about it simply because its taboo. And no parent wants their sons or daughters to be associated with this type of people. But, what type of people are they? They go to the supermarket to get their groceries like everyone else, they watch that reality shows every weekend, they like to hangout at the bookstore to find that new book you read on Oprah's book club and so on. The difference are, they have to fight their way through everything.

Due to this misconceptions, those who are suffering chose to cover their dark shadows either by wearing a mask everyday or isolate themselves with the world. It's quite sad really as they're desperate to live their life peacefully. They don't want to be judged as weak or crazy. They don't want to be treated differently like they're some sort of an alien from outer space. Encourage them but don't criticize.

Unfortunately, we have a long way to go to change people's perceptions on mental illness. Different from other countries, they would advertise places(publicly, on national television) to help with depression, anxiety and even classes for people who would like to understand mental illness. But, a lot of people I've met would say that this is just a white-person's-propagandas illness. In other words, there's no such thing.

Love Me

By The 1975  
With a new look(and hopefully good attitude) I've decide to go back to square one. Both my life and this blog are going through quite a transition to a different, unknown, horrifying angle. Yes, it might sound foolish and irrational however, I've decided that it's time to put the past behind and move forward. When I started this blog, my intentions were out of the place. I wanted to write for myself, write to inspire and unfortunately, write to get enough attention hoping someone would drop a comment. It seems that times have changed and people are more drawn to specific topics like politics, weddings and even cats! Not that I don't like cats but you get the point. So I've decided to focus on the specifics and hopefully able to stick to my plan. New stories every week, Insyallah.    Love, aisyah x

Something Good

By alt-j

This blog is under construction. New stuff coming soon.

Love, aisyah x

Patterns

by Merriment

How strange life could be sometimes. How little things that you've appreciated would start appreciating you back! However, I do sometimes feel the need to hold myself back. To not let myself devour on the sweetness of temporary things. But is it temporary? Imagine if you've been wanting to fly your whole life. You've been waiting for that one moment to have that courage and own yourself a pair of wings. When you've been given that pair of wings, you try it out, and off you go! You'll feel like you have been reborn, rejuvenated.



But the moment you land, you start to worry.

What if this pair of wings doesn't want to fly anymore? What if my body grows bigger, and my beautiful wings won't be able to carry me? What if...

Regardless, that feeling of being able to fly, be free - makes you believe that its OKAY. That there is a possibility of getting abandoned by your own wings, but there is also a possibility that it'll stay with you forever. It'll eventually become a part of you when you least expected. And when that happens, are you still going to think it's gonna be temporary?

Nobody knows how to predict the future, but it is best to let it be a mystery. And that, is the best feeling a human being could ever experience. From my point of view at least.


Wings

courtesy of google

by Birdy

Love is a wonderful thing. Love creates a bond between two people and connects them in a lot of ways. With this connection, humans unintentionally would share every bits and pieces of themselves with their significant other, and vise versa. To those who are no so lucky, they would intentionally create some sort of distraction just to survive. Well, no one wants to be lonely at the end of the day. Some has the guts to climb onto an unknown territory known as dating.

But how do you know whether its worth it for you to take the next step with that person? What happens if you have all of this time and expectations, only to find that it won't turn up the way that you've always wanted?

I shall run to my pillow fort now!

Falling Slowly

By Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova

The 1st thing I did when I welcomed my birthday was listen to Four Non Blondes - What's Up. So, below are the list of things that I wanna do before welcoming my next birthday.

- Revisit places that I've been before, with a new perspective
- Learn to love myself up until I'm ready to share it with someone
- Be more optimistic




Love,
Aisyah

There Goes The Fear

by Doves

2013 is coming to an end. How time flies and how we've learned about life each day. We redefine things that suits our beliefs and our lifestyles. And as we aged, we tend to see things differently, or trying to. Again, we make new friends and bid farewell to some. This is what I've learned this year:

- Its okay to stumble. What matters the most is that you pick yourself up, and continue to walk again.
There's alot of things that could trigger you emotionally. You can't run away from the things that would eventually stress you out. Regardless, you'll have to choose to face it and not run away. Because if you run, that fear would eventually greet you again like an old friend.

- Happiness comes from yourself. Don't depend it on others.
People have their own shit to think about. Yes, there is people who would care about your shit to. But they can't always be there 24/7. By the end of the day, you would have to find your own happiness in order to believe that you are standing on your two own feet.

- Love yourself before you can love someone else.
Yes, you might find someone who's as fucked up as you are. But if you don't love yourself, how in the world you can make that person love you. Because the reality is, you expect that person to love you just the way you are although subconsciously, you are rejecting the idea. Acceptance is the key. Although you're not born with a bodacious rack and a hot junk, there's something beyond the physical image that sets you off from the others. Love yourself because you're unique.

- Money is never everything. Although you are thought that money is important.
Don't deny the fact that money can give you security, can take you to places and can provide food and shelter. But don't put money on the top of your pyramid (pie chart or whatever). Although it's nice to have fancy things, eat at a fancy restaurant, but it would only gives you a short period of satisfaction. Then, you would want more. But it's always hard to sustain that feeling because like I said, it's short.

- You body is your crown jewel.
It's very important to take care of yourself, health wise. You'll come to a point where your body starts to rebel. Every junk that you've consume for years and your unstable lifestyle can ruin your youth. Everybody would start to age, but every individual aged differently. Exercising and eating healthy food can do you wonders.

- Honesty is a lonely word. But essential.
Be true to yourself like you are to others. If you know that you have a problem, be honest and take action. Don't convince yourself that you are just imagining things. Its the same as when you tell someone that you're having a problem, the only reply you've got was 'it's all in your head'.  Don't put yourself down by rejecting YOU!

- The grass is always greener on the other side.
If things doesn't work out as it is supposed to, doesn't mean that life is going against you. I'm a true believer of there's always a reason for everything. Things doesn't work out because better ones are yet to come. Be patient. Life would always surprise you with it's wonders. Embrace the good and the bad.

-   Whether you believe in The Almighty or not, faith is important like the air that you breathe.
Personally, I do believe in God as he is the sole reason of my existence. And I'm thankful each day that He had granted me another day, whenever I wake up in the morning. Although you can't see Him physically but with faith, you know that He is there. Every religion (or individuals) have their own sets of believes, but having faith can always give you the ultimate comfort and peace.

I shall list down things that I'm looking forward to do for 2014 soon. Insyallah.