10 things i hate about you

i hate the fact that i'm the last,
the fact that i'm the youngest,
i hate when you bought me sandals,
instead of thoes flashing sneakers,

i hate when i was closed to you,
when i was just a kid,
i hated when you left,
and all the problems started to hit,

i hate when you came back,
after all this years,
i hated when you went away,
and all i can do is drop these tears,

i hated the fact that you were waiting for me,
to speak your last words,
i hated when you're gone,
your voice i could no longer heard,

i hated when they blamed me,
telling me i'm cruel,
i hated the fact that,
all thoes fucking words are awfully true...

how i feel numb today. i've watched my father slowly put to the grave, rest in peace. i couldn't tell him that finally anwar ibrahim has a place in parliment! how i haven't visited him for months and suddenly he's gone. the fact that i resembles him so much i couldn't deny because everytime i looked into the mirror, all i can see is him. i hope he forgiven me for everything that i've done to him. i also hope that he could company abang up there.

al-fatihah

Abdullah bin Abbas