Make Me Wanna Die

by The Pretty Reckless

don't take advantage of me, because i'm vulnerable,
because i'm small, because i'm capable,
my egos are busting, i'm planning a riot,
you wouldn't understand, you wouldn't bare it,
this time screw all, i won't consider you,
as an essential, it's not the issue,
the real deal is, heart has been ripped,
path has been covered, light has been dimmed,
i'll never be good enough, yes i know,
i'm not even close to a friend, more like a foe,
this time i'm wearing a bulletproof vest,it's no lie,
my finger is close to the trigger, and you make me wanna die.

p/s: i'm not hating anybody or dedicating this to anyone. it's just an angry poem. if you felt like this was for you, i have no comment...

Quelqu'un M'a Dit

by Carla Bruni

i've read this and it was something that i really need in my current situations and to dust off this year's dirt. i never realized that all the small things could cure my wounded heart. it made me appreciate the life that i've borrowed. that inspired me to list down my awesome things...very random, very small, very AWESOME!

1. listening to music while walking, imagining that i'm shooting a video clip.
2. after shower feeling.
3. watching people's body language while talking to me.
4. finishing the last bits of food.
5. been called apon when the laptop hanged.
6. waking up beside someone.
7. waking up knowing that the person beside you is staring.
8. butterflies in my stomach.
9. buying mcD's on a fasting month and pretend to be chinese.
10. that warm feeling when hugging.
11. feeling the texture of the palm when holding hands.
12. looking at the screen when the phone rings.
13. the feeling when you've finally found the right shoe.
14. taking off every accessories before hitting the shower.
15. choosing the 'outfit of the day'.
16. soaking my toes in a warm beach sand.

there's more to it...i'll continue in the future...=)

She's Not There

by The Zombies

Bahasa Melayu Pasar lagi!!

ade la seorang kawan aku penah cakap "kalau kau down(sedih/kechewa), keluar! lepak dengan kengkawan, get a life (dapatkan hidup!)". aku pegang dengan kata-kata kawan aku tu. jadi ape yang aku buat?

1. aku pergi tegur sape-sape yang aku dah lame nampak kat ASWARA, perkenalkan diri aku.
2. aku try contact balik kawan-kawan sekolah aku.
3. aku senyum kat orang yang pernah sakitkan hati aku.
4. aku baik balik dengan orang yang aku tak suke.
5. aku bercakap dengan orang yang aku pernah gaduh.
6. aku meminta maaf dan memaafkan.
7. aku lepak dengan orang yang aku dah lame tak lepak.
8. ketawa dengan perangai gila aku.

hidup ni singkat. bak kate perpatah orang putih "life is too short for sorrow" (hidup ni terlalu pendek untuk bersedih). aku pegang jugak sampai sekarang! dan ia telah memudahkan aku untuk terus mendongak tinggi dan maju ke hadapan (keep moving forward la katekan). kawan-kawan sangat penting untuk aku. mereka adalah orang yang akan berterus terang dengan kau, walaupun pedih tapi itulah kenyataan. dan aku tak suke putus hubungan dengan orang yang aku pernah intim. terlalu sayang untuk biarkan macam tu je, tergantung di papan memori. jangan sentimental sangat yang oi!

p/s: i've noticed that i've been frequently posting "bahasa melayu pasar". it's just that in this segment, i'm more positive. i shall continue doing this because it's a good therapy for me. any readers who prefer to share this with me however doesn't understand Malay, feel free to contact me. i'll be happy to translate.

Scar

by Missy Higgins

don't worry honey, i'm smiling...enjoy this happy song instead! =)

Regret

by New Order


MAYBE CONTAIN SPOILERS

INCEPTION
DIRECTED BY CHRISTOPHER NOLAN: i have no idea how this idea came from. you need like a twisted imagination (almost beyond Michel Gondry) to create this story. it was arranged beautifully without making the audience felt confused (except for the nerve racking ending). Leonardo DiCaprio was for me, the perfect person to play Dom Cobb. he portrayed a man thorn between focusing on his job and battling his inner demon, in this case his deceased wife Mal (Marion Cotillard). The concept of every team's part were explained but it still confuses me (because it was related to film making), so i'm not gonna spoil it for you, go find out yourself. i do love the concept of how dreams can create a whole new word if you take control of it. how a dream can manipulate the brain and plant an idea when you wake up. however, if you cross the certain borders of deception, the world you've created would collapse, leaving the person you wanted to manipulate knows the truth that this is not real. enough of the mambo-jumbo, let's cut to the chase!

although i'll admit, i'm not a big fan of cgi but this one is an exception. it's a dream for crying out loud! the graphic was great and how they've used meta-physics and advance architecture technic to create a world similar but not the same. multi-layering the story with detail without mixing the dreams up. the casts was greatly bought! i mean, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Ellen Page, Michael Caine? Shots were taken beautifully, the sound was not overly done plus i love how they used Edith Piaf's song as their source of awakening (from the lucid dreams). the sets were remarkable and memorable especially the staircase scene where Arthur (J.Gordon-Levitt) shows Ariadne (E.Page) how paradox works.

and the bad! knowing that i'm used with doing continuity (or infamously known as the conty girl), i had several problems with it in this film. like come on! the scene where Cobb was found along the sea shore, and one of the guards went to the boss to show him what was on the man that they've found. he places the brass top on the table upside down, and when it cut to closeup, it was on the right side. and there's so many more (Ariadne's loose bun/night int, day ext/etc.)

overall, i strongly recommend people to watch it. some reviews i read gave this film "Kubrick doing Bond, or Gondry on a huge budget, but mostly pure Nolan".

Menghapus Jejakmu

by Peterpan (peterporn?)

Selamat berpuase ya kawan2!!bertemu kembali di segmen bahasa melayu pasar!!sejak kebelakangan ni aku kurang tulis review (ulasan) filem hanya sebab aku xtengok wayang dalam mase2 terdekat ni. tp lain kali aku tgk, aku akan ulasan (dan hentam) panjang2. di bulan yang mulia ni alhamdulillah setakat ni aku masih berupaya untuk berpuasa, walaupun diganggu oleh bayangan2 yang menyelubungi perasaan, nk buat camne......layan saja!hmm...

walau bagaimanapun itu tidak mengganggu topik kita pada hari ini, duit. dapat duit, shopping (membeli belah)! memang sah la klu dapat duit mesti membeli. tp harus diingat, walaupun nak raya, macam2 bende nak beli...puase tetap puasa. menguji kesabaran dan kekuatan iman. dalam erti kata lain, jangan tak ingat dunia ye kawan2. mase kat bazaar tu, taula korang tengah lapar tp belum tentu mase berbuka korang boleh habiskan sume makanan yang dibeli. tu semua nafsu je! aku bukanlah pakar agama tapi mengulas ikut akal. (jangan nanti nak pertikaikan perangai aku lak!)

selain daripada makanan, bulan puasa ni kalau boleh amik kesempatan untuk mulakan balik hidup. yang buruk semua jadikan teladan, memaafkan dan melupakan perkara2 yang lepas, syukur dengan nikmat yang diberi dan yang sedia ada.

semoga Ramadhan kalian kali ini memberi makna mendalam dalam hidup kalian.

Amin.

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I

chains,
tying me up around my wrist,
because i'd took a risk,
to wish for something that does not exist,

chains,
invincible yet pulling,
preventing me from falling,
preventing me from moving,

chains,
made me feel something that i should not,
something that i would fought,
over the one thing that completes me, so i thought.

II

call me stupid, call me crazy,
call me whatever, call me hasty,
i won't be mad if you call me baby,
because all i want is you and me,
judging by this, i'm not confident with my wish,
however i still have hope, then call me selfish,
call me whatever you want, i won't get angry,
because we've shared everything, even our history,
you once left me feeling flattered when trust were exchanged,
now you're turning your back, left me estranged,
convince me love wasn't something you've made up,
because my feelings for you would immediately stop,
so as my heart, or the air that i breathe,
when every inhale, i feel you moving inside of me.